No One

There is no one to come home to
When life changes
There is no sense of home

When the future seems uncertain
There is no one to hold me
When I feel uncertain

All my uncried tears are still wet
For you, my uncertain future
My tears remain uncried

My future is still uncried
And I have no one to hold me
There is no one to come home to

Midnight Love

What is necessary in a sunrise
Is a love that never faileth
A light that the darkness doesn't understand
From that someone that changes the pain
To save ourselves we must also save each other
And spend a lifetime learning how to live

What is necessary is to look
A little bit deeper for the good
Midnight love is hard to find
And I'm a real woman with no need to be a fantasy
So locate some kindness within
Because life might not taste as good without me

What is necessesary is to not waste time
Let us be awake all night
Or be awake the rest of our lives
I want to stay up and talk with you
Talk about everything forever
Give me your forever and the rest of time

What is necessary is never unwise
So I'm the one that cares
Calling you down from the stars to become my everything
I'll be the smile that warms up your soul
Or maybe I'll become somebody elses sunrise
And the only midnight you will always remember

What is necessary is everything
So don't wait until tomorrow
Wake me up if the time is right to say it
It's necessary to say I love you to someone you love
In case there will be no other nights
It's necessary, before everything becomes nothing

Ghost of September

It's always trying to find me

The Ghost of Last September

It wants me

To make me show a piece of my soul

Not yet appreciated nor deserved

By any of its beholders

It is hungry

Wants to feed on my desires

To reach out to where there is noone

The bait is an illusion

That is fading with every heartbeat

That doesn't care

Sometimes we put ourselves in situations

From which there is no turning back

There is no hiding

From the Ghost of September

And I always choose the same wrong

Because I am addicted to my own excuses

Love is only

For the lucky and the strong

And there are no second chances

So there is no need to act like you care

When I say goodbye, feeling nothing

For you, my Ghost of September

Potentially Immortal

When the awareness of the others has left us

And we are all alone

You're the last one I cling to

With your hand full of promises

Never to be made nor kept

I've already let life get to me

Only to see it fade

Because you are running too fast through my veins

And I am bound to loose you

As you take my breath away

Leaving me in need

Of instant gratification

Stuck in the game we both are loosing by not playing

You get me, but aren't willing to see

That together we become a jewel that time can't destroy

Potentially immortal

With a song in my head that describes

Everything you mean to me

Iam not allowed to come too close

To your capacity of loving

Counting days, counting nights

My thoughts of you warm up the moonlight

So I can go to bed

And with no thought of tomorrow

Eternity becomes my protection

Dreaming of a reality

Where your mind becomes like mine

While your heart tells me thousands of stories

About how loneliness is but a fairytale

And my past is forgiven and forgotten

Change the World

I remember the first time I met you

An intruder in the life I call mine

But as all other transfers throughout time

It was the fruit of inspiration divine

I've enjoyed the time you have been here

A time of friendship, lessons, and laughter

But like everybody else you will leave me

For now and ever after

You say you're off to make a difference

To change the world as we know it

As I've felt the potential of your noble heart

I know there will be no limit

Since I've seen the way you work

Your faith, your testimony, your spirit

I wish you good luck with the rest of the world

Because mine you've already changed it

Ready To Be Blessed

I've been waiting for this moment

Now I'm standing before your eyes

After spending a whole life

Only finding others in your disguise

I've been through so many heartaches

Been touched by lovers, friends, and places

Everyone of them a bridge

Through and over life's little phases

Guided from above by someone

Who wanted me to meet you

Someone who's looking for reasons to bless us

No matter the mistakes that we do

For so many years I've been a foreigner

Feeling home could only be by your side

Though I've tried my best to prepare to meet you

I've lost years neglecting my guide

But I am ready for love now

Heaven confirms I have passed the test

So I'm standing here before you

Ready to bless and be blessed

Somebody Else

I wonder if it's enough for you to share a divided heart
Is it enough to be behind the other side of love
Where you can't make decisions
A side of accepting without understanding

Where you can never be together with the dream
That is sitting next to you
You can't talk, you can't touch
You can't breath the same air

So close and yet so far away
So forsaken by somebody else
And you are left alone with the translation of the song of a heart
That is singing only for you

And I am stuck between two singing hearts
In a place where life is hard and lonely
Two hearts that so badly want to touch the skies
And come down together as one

The hardest decision to make
Is who to be with at the end of the day
And it will always make you wake up with somebody else
Even if there is noone else like you in this world

One of Those Days

It was one of those days
When the room around me
Seemed emptier and smaller
There wasn't even place for solitude
And the walls had no time
To watch me or talk to me

It was one of those days
When loneliness wanted to come in
It was too cold outside for life to smile
Though not rainy enough
To wash away my secret wish
To not want to think about anything at all

It was one of those days
Just the day after yesterday
When existence tried to strangle my soul
And almost made it
Though saved temporarily by the hope
That these empty days would have no memory

It was one of those days
When I just wanted the minutes to leave me alone
To stop reminding me that they have no end
They just begin over and over again
Point at me and laugh at me
And won't let me close my eyes

It was one of those days
When thinking doesn't help
Even your absence had abandoned me
And I could no longer remember
What it was like standing beside you
Being able to dream about you

It was one of those days
When the music abandoned my night
I just wanted to to taste the sound of my name on your lips again
And fast forward life until a day
When there is no longer any space allowed between us
For you to love, to live, to breathe without me

My Nights

The sky is bathing in twilight
The sun is singing goodnight
The horizon is warm and orange
Today is soon out of sight

I'm welcoming the night
The guardian of my heart
When I'm alone with the darkness
My life gets a whole new start

I can be myself now
While I'm awake and alone
There is so much to dream about
When I lie here on my own

How the world can be so beautiful
Even if you're not by my side
And it will never be the two of us
So my feelings must be denied

But always brought back to life again
In my pocket of time called night
There's where I always think of you
And I can enjoy your light

Still I'm hoping for the day
You will make my nights come true
There are so many real things
I would like to share with you

My heart's loneliness and secret thoughts
Its darkness and its light
All its sacred feelings
Its every day and night

Loneliness can be more beautiful
When it is shared by two
So I'm longing for the day when
All my nights will be shared by you

Starry Starry Night

A sky so full of stars

The've been there since Eternity

My wish since then and forever

Was that but one would fall for me

Every day as filled with hope

As every night is filled with wishes

But still your mouth is being caressed by

Somebody elses kisses

A sky so full of stars

I look up every night to see

If forever will ever be changing

So that you will be falling for me

My days are all full of day dreams

And every night it is you that I'm missing

All I do is dream about

The day that it's me that you're kissing

A sky so full of stars

I wish they would give me a sign

That the day I would see a star falling

You would become mine

And one day Destiny brought to me

A night of falling stars to see

They fell for everything I ever dreamed of

But none of them was falling for me

A sky so full of stars

And dreams full of hope and of wishes

So close within my heart, but yet as far away

As your body, your soul, and your kisses

Your Heart

Another heart
That's what I need
To have balance in my life

Every time I feel lonely or worried
I can be reminded of
A brilliant future full of joy
In which I can continue letting myself
Being guided by your love

I can be myself
My eyes can continue smiling
Reflecting what's inside of me
The way you make me feel

If you hurt me, I will forgive you
If you laugh at me
I will laugh with you
But please don't say the words
You shouldn't make me feel

Welcome into my heart
A temple I have cleaned only for you
Done my best to keep it pure and tidy
So that you will like to be there

Stay a lifetime, an Eternity
Kiss me and tell me bedtime stories
Wake me up for breakfast
Whispering me sweet somethings

Your heart
Fountain of possibilities
Both to soothe my pain
And to embrace my happiness
That's what I really need
To have balance in my life
Together we can create Perfection

The Legend

In my mind I created him
Of illusions, and rays of morning sun
Penetrating through clouds made of cotton
Softly embedding the life I treasure
With my mouth I covered him with gold

People can think they know his thoughts
What he dreams, and what he feels
That they know his inside from the outside
But they don't know him like I do
They don't know his heart

They don't know the real person
Hidden and conserved
Behind that layer of gold
But they might hear him breathe
If they listen carefully

The Legend says that if you are quiet
You can hear his beating heart
I want to believe that it is true
But I know that it's my own heart beating in his body
So I try to never leave his side

And I know that he is my illusion
My thought, and my dream
No one knows him like I do
He is the gold that covers me
If you are quiet you may hear my beating heart

A Whole New Mind

I see his young heart
And it feels like September all over again
Even if you're still all around me
I know you were never my final Destination
Neither is he

I thought I had scattered
All my memories of you in the ocean
But every day without you
Still cuts me like a knife
Every day without him reminds me of this

I'm so tired of love
These dreams will have to die
So that I can finally make a song about the fact
The world has spun around the sun for the first time
Without my life being concentrated to your eyes

In his eyes I see a glimps of the life that was, but I never had
The times when you weren't a memory
Everytime I feel his heart I fall a little bit deeper
And, as I stand in his sun, I know
I will need a whole new mind to get over both of you

September Without You

Another need for silence
One more chance I have been given
To learn one of life's lessons
I am destined to be re-living

Until I've learned I will re-live you
And that lonely September
That shaped my heart, and for forever
Gave me something to remember

Thinking I belong with you
Knowing that I don't
Hoping to survive the illusion
Knowing that I won't

Another pair of green eyes
Illuminating my day by day
It must be that closing my eyes and heart
Is the price I have to pay

Even if I'm blessed
With a sense of Reality
I don't deny that I secretely wish I could be with you
For time and all Eternity

But therein, my friends, lies the lesson
To learn to shut off my senses, and keep my mouth shut too
So I don't have to re-live another September
Without someone like you

That Moment

Everyone else disappeared
And I was left alone with you
Only for a moment

Your eyes were closed so you didn't notice
As I found myself
Contemplating you in awe

So preciously sorrowless
So impossible to hurt
Were you in that moment

When we were left alone
In a room full of people
And I was the only one that noticed

Alone

On my way into the deepest hole
You already saw me there
Not because it was my Destiny
But because you saw my heart

You saw so many other things
And I was letting you see them
My caleidoscopic mind is open
If you only want to know the way

Few are the ones that take the risk
Fewer the ones that bother
But being so alike me
I want to believe it was a pleasure for you

You've seen so many things
That I will never know them all
My secrets, my joy, my plans, and my pain
You saw everything by just loving

So when your eyes told me
That everything will be fine without you
I closed my eyes and believed you
And now I'm all alone

The emptiness is talking to me
The saddest thing you can hear is
"I will see you again some day"
When you want to see them today

But now I am here all alone
Longing for yesterday
When you weren't only a happy memory
And I was missing noone

You Could Happen To Me

You are the moment
I don't know if it will ever come
Like a suspected surprise
Planned for a long time
By someone to love

You are the door that opens
The sound of anticipation
Of possible exitement
That takes my breath away
Everytime you could happen to me

You are the footsteps
That I hope are coming closer
Closer to my heart to settle down
Closer to my life to stay
Closer to me

You are the feeling
That potential to bubble up inside of me
To relieve all my pains
And surround me with the certainty
Of a greater tomorrow

You are the secret corner of my smile
Where noone is allowed to go
It's the only place where I can be with you
Where we can be together
There, and in my mind

Jules Verne

Lovely beetle on the stage
Why don't you sing a song about this page
A song about bottles, and candles, and toast
Where Jules Verne has been our host

Good company and good friends
Sharing together a meal
Drinking to the moon light
Asking for things to reveal

Sleepy light without any candles
The wind blows us to Baltimore
Where romantic taxi boat
Takes us to the other shore

But the memory takes us back
To where we are now
Writing together a poem
In this beautiful town

Where Maybe Meets Always

I am tired
Sometimes it's hard
To long for someone
I don't know exists
Still I feel your presence
A sunbeam from your soul
Daily visits mine
Filling me with hope

When I lay down at night
I wonder how it will be
The day that we finally meet
I want to feel the connecting sparkle
The warmth of your embrace
That I forever can call home

So many blessings waiting for us
That is what I've been told
Meanwhile we will be
In each others prayers
So when our longing meet
The Spirit will be able to
Overwhelm our hearts
Removing every doubt

If incompletion strikes you at night
I want you to know I feel the same
If we hold out a little longer
Loneliness will soon be ours to share
Become our little temple
Where the walls are built of love
A power finally unleashed

I know we both may be tired
But those stars you see in the sky
Are all my thoughts of you
Remember them well
Because one day you will see them in my eyes
They will predict our future
So I will keep them shining

I'm sending you this message
To remind you that I do exist
And I'm yearning
For the day we both will be prepared
I promise to do my best every day
To come closer to you
I expect nothing else from you
Until we meet
I will be waiting for you in the horizon
Where Maybe meets Always
Hoping that you're thinking about me too

Roads

On the road passing an old home
In a country where I thought I loved
But maybe never did
It makes it hurt that it ever happened

Where much is lost
Much is learned
The difference between loss and gain
Lies in the denial of the beholder

I stayed for so long
Where noone needed me to be
Because of an imagined reality
And lack of correct illusions

Fate takes us where it wants to
When we are afraid of taking control
Only decisions made with the soul
Give way to what they call Destiny

So much time wasted
Thinking we know what we're doing
And even more, trying to change direction
On a path we might never dare to take

Full of life and hopes
Powers we've never been using
Fears of all kinds and sizes
Known and unknown

Godless, yet God-conscious
Lost in labyrinths of young desires
Imagined revelations
All leading to roads not taken

Roads leading to new opportunities
To take control of our fears, and of love
Of Reality, and of Destiny
It will hurt if it never happens

The Message

I'm looking up to the heavens
But there's nothing in the sky
No birds, no sun, no airplanes
Let me tell you why

A volcano shared her feelings
Screamed as her burning heart burst
Tears and ashes, now of loneliness
Where there once for love was thirst

She has been mourning for a week now
Her message is still in the air
And we realize as we are stranded
We are unknowing and unaware

Of the consequences of true love
When it ends or when it dies
That loneliness can hurt so much
It can empty all the skies

And that life can change so fast
So we better be prepared
Life is too short for living thinking:
"No one loved", or "No one cared"

So she claims all our attention
Wants the media to write
That too little love can kill you
So love with all your might

Today I Missed You

From the very beginning

You filled my life with meaning

With structure, and with hope

Everyday with you was marked

With a special love, a joy

That many don't believe exist

Everyday without you

Seems a day wasted

I knew you had to leave

Now I'm longing for the day

You will be back for more

Because today I missed you

When that days comes

Nothing else will matter

Youre absence is my best friend here

It reminds me every day

How it was having you with me

It caresses my loneliness

Sings lullabyes to my dreams

But can't untie the knot in my soul

Fill my midnights with moonlight

Nor give wings to my heart

Today I missed you

I need you to come back now

Before my longing becomes unbearable

My heart implodes from impatience

And its hope disappears with the wind

So I need you to come back now

You've been away too long

I need to pretend you didn't leave me

Where yesterdays become eternity

If you only come back

I promise to mend your broken heart

Everytime I break it

Just like I always do

But be sure to come back

Today I missed you

Acceptance

Another summer
Disappeared with the wind
Suddenly everything got colder
Now all I wanna do is cry

Not everything is happiness
Even a smile can fade
Though it seems like it always existed
All I wanna do is cry

Unfortuntely I'm a frequent visitor
At the dark veil
Where hope slowly dies
And all I wanna do is cry

Tormented with a broken heart
Persecuted by a contrite spirit
For all the wrong reasons
So all I wanna do is cry

What I need is to be hugged
Until I understand
That not everything is lost
'Cause all I wanna do is cry

In your soul I can see
My own reflection
Sick and tired of empty rooms
All I wanna do is cry

Anger was never a part of me
Denial sometimes makes me blind
But with blessed acceptance in my veins
I've ran out of reasons to cry

Seven Days

Monday
I never saw you coming
Don't remember you ever being away
Like you were always a latent part of me
Integrated by default

Tuesday
I fell asleep because
I didn't want to think
Waking up
Only made me more able to

Wednesday
You haven't only taken
The power over my mind
Your presence has also spun
A web of unavailibility between our hearts

Thursday
Another morning
Still all I think about is you
Afraid to understand why
Terrified to forget how to

Friday
I am not for you
You are not for me
Though you are always on my mind
The way I feel about you is more special

Saturday
These days I've realized that
Loneliness is different
When you have someone to share it with
One day I hope it can be with you

Sunday
Looking back, thanks to you, I've discovered
A happier place in my mind
A more comfortable place in my soul
A warmer place in my heart

I'm closing my eyes
Wishing a good night
Waiting for tomorrow
When I´ll finally see you again

To All Undesired Goodbye's

I don't need to explore
The geography of your mind
To get lost in the hope
Of my heart going blind
So that I can miss the end
Of our next goodbye

I don't need a dictionary
To the language of your heart
If you won't be able to answer
The question I have no right to ask
When will I read the first line
Of our next goodbye

I always need to wait but
I have no time and
My heart has got no patience
No patience to wait for the beginning
Of our next goodbye

I do need you to know this one thing
If there's anything you can do
I'm not waiting for you
To complete my life
Just to feel less incomplete
In the moment
Of our next goodbye

I don't need to know
What it is you do to me
I'm just trying to enjoy
These countless feelings I'm breathing
And meanwhile
I will try to survive 'til the day
Of our next goodbye

Your Presence

Like a smile appears

In the sparkling eyes of a child

So it warms me up

As it cuddles up in my soul

The influence of Your Presence

When you are near

Come what may

I feel good and more complete

In fact, I am able to feel

Because of Your Presence

Your eyes have arms

They hug me every day

How can I even be sad

When my life is filled

With Your Presence

Your words

Are meaningful to me

Like air brings life

They bring me closer

To Your Presence

When you walk in

The rest of the world walks out

My heart follows you

So I am never apart

From Your Presence

In the end of the day

Shadows may rise

But there is always sunshine

As long as I am found

In Your Presence

As the moon follows the sun

And the sun follows the rain

My longing goes to you

Who sprinkles my life with stardust

For your friendship

For being who you are

For Your Presence

To A Very Special Friend

Our encounter only counts as a moment

Of eternity, like a shooting star

That what made the difference

Is that you are who you are

During this short time

You have really touched my heart

I'm happy for my life here

And that you could play a part

It has puzzled me how you've been able

To always be what I need

Im my eyes you are Christlike

In thought, and word, and deed

Your personality has showed me

How Heavenly Father works and is

No matter what you say

Your behavior has been His

Apart from serving the Lord

Improving the world has been your call

Though the reason you seem perfect to me

Might be that I don't really know you at all

There are countless things I am grateful for

The Gospel, cats, cookies, and

That life has brought to me in you

A very special friend

Though there are reasons why the future

Only makes it to the past

The present seems like a dream

And is never meant to last

We really had a good time

Now I understand that you must leave

But we will see each other again

This I both know and believe

I hope to see you in the eternities

But until then

I pray that God will be with you

Till we meet again

Handle with Prayer

You might think you're but a human
Born to walk a while upon this earth
But Heaven sparkled like a thousand fires
At contemplating the miracle of your birth

You had been a very courageous soul
Had chosen what was good and right
I know you don't remember this but
You are made of truth and light

You might think you're but a human
Unsignificant and alone
But angels hold their arms around you
When you think you're on your own

Sometimes the night might have seemed long
But now awaits a brighter day
Full of heavenly blessings
They are more than I can say

You might think you're but a human
Without any purpose here
But Heaven will show you your meaning
And help you to prepare

As you strife for Eternal Life
You must handle your soul with care
Remember the love of Jesus Christ and
Fill your life with prayer

You might think you're but a human
But people like you Jesus Christ died to save
And Heaven will shout of joy
As you come up from the grave

They have followed your every decision
Guided your footsteps whether near or far
And longed from the beginning of time
For this very moment when you are where you are

You might think you're but a human
But you are a woman, and a great example too
Friends and family will feel heaven closer
As they see Christ in you

This is only a beginning
On a journey without end
Eternity is such a long time
I am glad I brought a friend

Sweet Disposition

These glimmering pearls
Longing to fall
From my heart
Through the eyes of my soul
Are barely imitiations

Feelings I once felt
Inviding me again
Striking me without mercy
Like hungry waves on a seashore
I feel like giving up and give in

I am almost enjoying it
What would I do
If there was nothing to eat my heart
Running without moving
Leaving it all behind

An earthquake shook my frozen soul
Even to the very ground
Whatever made my eyes sparkle
Broke all the rules
Thus it had happened again

If I could I would laugh but
As you said goodbye
I think I died a little
If I close my eyes forever
Will it all remain a dream

Maybe some day
Everything that has died in me
Will be reborn
Will live up and blossom
Like a vision

Despite of everything
This stupid heart
Goes on longing
Every shattered piece
Is still unconditionally loving

When the moon is smiling
Everything is possible
So even if the floor for pain
Seems to be bottomless
Sweet is my disposition

The only limit to our happiness is imagination
So if I surrender to the energy
Maybe the right words will come
I can only pray
I never have to look back again, ever

Tender Eyes

As you look at me with tender eyes
What do you see
Whisper it to my soul
In terms of endearment
A moment of magical parentesis

Outside the world falls or slumbers
In the middle of it
Human life is pulsating
In my chest my heart is curled up
Like a kitten

Still waiting
For our existence to be enriched
By a breeze of eternity
Maybe temporary, but intensive
As we let the emotions take over

The street lights become blurred
Like a caleidoscope, a fairyland
Unlocking our dreams
Snow flakes are whirling around
In the solo song of the heart

I cry though I don't dream at all
Inside of me the sun is shining
Striving for the always in the never
As you look at me with tender eyes
We understand each other, and it hurts