A love you never had
Is a love you cannot loose
If you have no love to choose from
There is no love to choose
A love that never started
Is a love that cannot end
There can be no friendship
When love is not a friend
A love that never existed
Is a love that will not be
So I've come to the conclusion
That love's just not for me
Thoughts come to me
In the middle of the night
Awareness and sleep
Both putting up a fight
One or the other
Both of them can't live
Only sleep can help me forget
What awareness can't forgive
I'm not really sure
I live this life for me
My days are full of resistance
A freedom that doesn't feel free
Free to hope
And in faith believe
In love that will come
Never to leave
Sometimes I feel fooled
Blue-eyed and dumb
For my heart's still empty
Unused and numb
A heart without love
What good does it do
It's supposed to be filled
With someone like you
But you exist
As much as darkness in light
That's all I'm aware of
In the middle of the night
I both regret
And don't regret it
In either way
Nothing is getting better
So many ways to escape
But they all lead back
Whether I take the first one
Or take the latter
There's no way out
Around or up
I'm falling down
And I can't stop
So I raise my hands
Pretend I'm lost
Anywhere but here
There is no choice
I gave up tonight
My heart, my soul
Crying for help
Without a voice
A heart that longs
That has no hope
Sunk in a sea of misery
With an anchor made of wrongs
Underneath this light
There was no air tonight
And no one to forgive
The life I didn't live
Waiting for the good
I never understood
While fighting all this bad
The only good I ever had
I see her dream
And know how she feels
What we dream and feel
Is not always real
The dreams we dream
And thoughts we think
Can not always
Be expressed in ink
The dreams we dream
No matter how much we strife
Can not always
Be expressed in life
But let us hope and dream
Think and strife
Let's make real
What we want to feel
There's a life to live
And decisions to make
In our dreams we create
The real way to take
