Where Maybe Meets Always

I am tired
Sometimes it's hard
To long for someone
I don't know exists
Still I feel your presence
A sunbeam from your soul
Daily visits mine
Filling me with hope

When I lay down at night
I wonder how it will be
The day that we finally meet
I want to feel the connecting sparkle
The warmth of your embrace
That I forever can call home

So many blessings waiting for us
That is what I've been told
Meanwhile we will be
In each others prayers
So when our longing meet
The Spirit will be able to
Overwhelm our hearts
Removing every doubt

If incompletion strikes you at night
I want you to know I feel the same
If we hold out a little longer
Loneliness will soon be ours to share
Become our little temple
Where the walls are built of love
A power finally unleashed

I know we both may be tired
But those stars you see in the sky
Are all my thoughts of you
Remember them well
Because one day you will see them in my eyes
They will predict our future
So I will keep them shining

I'm sending you this message
To remind you that I do exist
And I'm yearning
For the day we both will be prepared
I promise to do my best every day
To come closer to you
I expect nothing else from you
Until we meet
I will be waiting for you in the horizon
Where Maybe meets Always
Hoping that you're thinking about me too

Roads

On the road passing an old home
In a country where I thought I loved
But maybe never did
It makes it hurt that it ever happened

Where much is lost
Much is learned
The difference between loss and gain
Lies in the denial of the beholder

I stayed for so long
Where noone needed me to be
Because of an imagined reality
And lack of correct illusions

Fate takes us where it wants to
When we are afraid of taking control
Only decisions made with the soul
Give way to what they call Destiny

So much time wasted
Thinking we know what we're doing
And even more, trying to change direction
On a path we might never dare to take

Full of life and hopes
Powers we've never been using
Fears of all kinds and sizes
Known and unknown

Godless, yet God-conscious
Lost in labyrinths of young desires
Imagined revelations
All leading to roads not taken

Roads leading to new opportunities
To take control of our fears, and of love
Of Reality, and of Destiny
It will hurt if it never happens

The Message

I'm looking up to the heavens
But there's nothing in the sky
No birds, no sun, no airplanes
Let me tell you why

A volcano shared her feelings
Screamed as her burning heart burst
Tears and ashes, now of loneliness
Where there once for love was thirst

She has been mourning for a week now
Her message is still in the air
And we realize as we are stranded
We are unknowing and unaware

Of the consequences of true love
When it ends or when it dies
That loneliness can hurt so much
It can empty all the skies

And that life can change so fast
So we better be prepared
Life is too short for living thinking:
"No one loved", or "No one cared"

So she claims all our attention
Wants the media to write
That too little love can kill you
So love with all your might

Today I Missed You

From the very beginning

You filled my life with meaning

With structure, and with hope

Everyday with you was marked

With a special love, a joy

That many don't believe exist

Everyday without you

Seems a day wasted

I knew you had to leave

Now I'm longing for the day

You will be back for more

Because today I missed you

When that days comes

Nothing else will matter

Youre absence is my best friend here

It reminds me every day

How it was having you with me

It caresses my loneliness

Sings lullabyes to my dreams

But can't untie the knot in my soul

Fill my midnights with moonlight

Nor give wings to my heart

Today I missed you

I need you to come back now

Before my longing becomes unbearable

My heart implodes from impatience

And its hope disappears with the wind

So I need you to come back now

You've been away too long

I need to pretend you didn't leave me

Where yesterdays become eternity

If you only come back

I promise to mend your broken heart

Everytime I break it

Just like I always do

But be sure to come back

Today I missed you

Acceptance

Another summer
Disappeared with the wind
Suddenly everything got colder
Now all I wanna do is cry

Not everything is happiness
Even a smile can fade
Though it seems like it always existed
All I wanna do is cry

Unfortuntely I'm a frequent visitor
At the dark veil
Where hope slowly dies
And all I wanna do is cry

Tormented with a broken heart
Persecuted by a contrite spirit
For all the wrong reasons
So all I wanna do is cry

What I need is to be hugged
Until I understand
That not everything is lost
'Cause all I wanna do is cry

In your soul I can see
My own reflection
Sick and tired of empty rooms
All I wanna do is cry

Anger was never a part of me
Denial sometimes makes me blind
But with blessed acceptance in my veins
I've ran out of reasons to cry

Seven Days

Monday
I never saw you coming
Don't remember you ever being away
Like you were always a latent part of me
Integrated by default

Tuesday
I fell asleep because
I didn't want to think
Waking up
Only made me more able to

Wednesday
You haven't only taken
The power over my mind
Your presence has also spun
A web of unavailibility between our hearts

Thursday
Another morning
Still all I think about is you
Afraid to understand why
Terrified to forget how to

Friday
I am not for you
You are not for me
Though you are always on my mind
The way I feel about you is more special

Saturday
These days I've realized that
Loneliness is different
When you have someone to share it with
One day I hope it can be with you

Sunday
Looking back, thanks to you, I've discovered
A happier place in my mind
A more comfortable place in my soul
A warmer place in my heart

I'm closing my eyes
Wishing a good night
Waiting for tomorrow
When I´ll finally see you again

To All Undesired Goodbye's

I don't need to explore
The geography of your mind
To get lost in the hope
Of my heart going blind
So that I can miss the end
Of our next goodbye

I don't need a dictionary
To the language of your heart
If you won't be able to answer
The question I have no right to ask
When will I read the first line
Of our next goodbye

I always need to wait but
I have no time and
My heart has got no patience
No patience to wait for the beginning
Of our next goodbye

I do need you to know this one thing
If there's anything you can do
I'm not waiting for you
To complete my life
Just to feel less incomplete
In the moment
Of our next goodbye

I don't need to know
What it is you do to me
I'm just trying to enjoy
These countless feelings I'm breathing
And meanwhile
I will try to survive 'til the day
Of our next goodbye