Awareness

Thoughts come to me
In the middle of the night
Awareness and sleep
Both putting up a fight

One or the other
Both of them can't live
Only sleep can help me forget
What awareness can't forgive

I'm not really sure
I live this life for me
My days are full of resistance
A freedom that doesn't feel free

Free to hope
And in faith believe
In love that will come
Never to leave

Sometimes I feel fooled
Blue-eyed and dumb
For my heart's still empty
Unused and numb

A heart without love
What good does it do
It's supposed to be filled
With someone like you

But you exist
As much as darkness in light
That's all I'm aware of
In the middle of the night