Ghost of September

It's always trying to find me

The Ghost of Last September

It wants me

To make me show a piece of my soul

Not yet appreciated nor deserved

By any of its beholders

It is hungry

Wants to feed on my desires

To reach out to where there is noone

The bait is an illusion

That is fading with every heartbeat

That doesn't care

Sometimes we put ourselves in situations

From which there is no turning back

There is no hiding

From the Ghost of September

And I always choose the same wrong

Because I am addicted to my own excuses

Love is only

For the lucky and the strong

And there are no second chances

So there is no need to act like you care

When I say goodbye, feeling nothing

For you, my Ghost of September

Potentially Immortal

When the awareness of the others has left us

And we are all alone

You're the last one I cling to

With your hand full of promises

Never to be made nor kept

I've already let life get to me

Only to see it fade

Because you are running too fast through my veins

And I am bound to loose you

As you take my breath away

Leaving me in need

Of instant gratification

Stuck in the game we both are loosing by not playing

You get me, but aren't willing to see

That together we become a jewel that time can't destroy

Potentially immortal

With a song in my head that describes

Everything you mean to me

Iam not allowed to come too close

To your capacity of loving

Counting days, counting nights

My thoughts of you warm up the moonlight

So I can go to bed

And with no thought of tomorrow

Eternity becomes my protection

Dreaming of a reality

Where your mind becomes like mine

While your heart tells me thousands of stories

About how loneliness is but a fairytale

And my past is forgiven and forgotten

Change the World

I remember the first time I met you

An intruder in the life I call mine

But as all other transfers throughout time

It was the fruit of inspiration divine

I've enjoyed the time you have been here

A time of friendship, lessons, and laughter

But like everybody else you will leave me

For now and ever after

You say you're off to make a difference

To change the world as we know it

As I've felt the potential of your noble heart

I know there will be no limit

Since I've seen the way you work

Your faith, your testimony, your spirit

I wish you good luck with the rest of the world

Because mine you've already changed it

Ready To Be Blessed

I've been waiting for this moment

Now I'm standing before your eyes

After spending a whole life

Only finding others in your disguise

I've been through so many heartaches

Been touched by lovers, friends, and places

Everyone of them a bridge

Through and over life's little phases

Guided from above by someone

Who wanted me to meet you

Someone who's looking for reasons to bless us

No matter the mistakes that we do

For so many years I've been a foreigner

Feeling home could only be by your side

Though I've tried my best to prepare to meet you

I've lost years neglecting my guide

But I am ready for love now

Heaven confirms I have passed the test

So I'm standing here before you

Ready to bless and be blessed

Somebody Else

I wonder if it's enough for you to share a divided heart
Is it enough to be behind the other side of love
Where you can't make decisions
A side of accepting without understanding

Where you can never be together with the dream
That is sitting next to you
You can't talk, you can't touch
You can't breath the same air

So close and yet so far away
So forsaken by somebody else
And you are left alone with the translation of the song of a heart
That is singing only for you

And I am stuck between two singing hearts
In a place where life is hard and lonely
Two hearts that so badly want to touch the skies
And come down together as one

The hardest decision to make
Is who to be with at the end of the day
And it will always make you wake up with somebody else
Even if there is noone else like you in this world

One of Those Days

It was one of those days
When the room around me
Seemed emptier and smaller
There wasn't even place for solitude
And the walls had no time
To watch me or talk to me

It was one of those days
When loneliness wanted to come in
It was too cold outside for life to smile
Though not rainy enough
To wash away my secret wish
To not want to think about anything at all

It was one of those days
Just the day after yesterday
When existence tried to strangle my soul
And almost made it
Though saved temporarily by the hope
That these empty days would have no memory

It was one of those days
When I just wanted the minutes to leave me alone
To stop reminding me that they have no end
They just begin over and over again
Point at me and laugh at me
And won't let me close my eyes

It was one of those days
When thinking doesn't help
Even your absence had abandoned me
And I could no longer remember
What it was like standing beside you
Being able to dream about you

It was one of those days
When the music abandoned my night
I just wanted to to taste the sound of my name on your lips again
And fast forward life until a day
When there is no longer any space allowed between us
For you to love, to live, to breathe without me

My Nights

The sky is bathing in twilight
The sun is singing goodnight
The horizon is warm and orange
Today is soon out of sight

I'm welcoming the night
The guardian of my heart
When I'm alone with the darkness
My life gets a whole new start

I can be myself now
While I'm awake and alone
There is so much to dream about
When I lie here on my own

How the world can be so beautiful
Even if you're not by my side
And it will never be the two of us
So my feelings must be denied

But always brought back to life again
In my pocket of time called night
There's where I always think of you
And I can enjoy your light

Still I'm hoping for the day
You will make my nights come true
There are so many real things
I would like to share with you

My heart's loneliness and secret thoughts
Its darkness and its light
All its sacred feelings
Its every day and night

Loneliness can be more beautiful
When it is shared by two
So I'm longing for the day when
All my nights will be shared by you